Just how many times do I need to get hurt/hurt myself in order to learn my lesson and remember not to do the same stupid things again?

Now I can understand why drug addicts/gamblers/smokers find it hard to quit their bad habits. It's not easy. Really need a strong will. No wonder people said, "人是犯贱的". I'm such an idiot. I'll keep those words in my hp to remind myself not to commit the same mistakes again.

And, I truly understand my weaknesses.
A weak mind. A weak heart. Irrational and emotional.

His strength is made perfect in weakness!

I need a stronger mind and a stronger heart.